Some
years ago I was in a car accident, that gave me the remarkable
experience of sitting in a pillar of light, relaxed, waiting
for the unavoidable crash without fear, just being very awake.
The difficulty for ambulances to reach the place gave all
the cells a possibility to remember their places and slowly
scramble into their proper place again, more or less. I was
still very awake when the firebrigade arrived, but they were
not allowed to start working to get me out of the car until
the ambulance arrived, so we waited.
I saw these
menīs hearts, some beautiful with heroic wish to protect and
help, others stiff and cold hearts and afraid of me and my
situation. The ambulance arrived, and the firebrigademen started
their work to get me out of the car. To our astonishment I
told them I was not stuck.
In the ambulance
the young man reported a lot of severe damage to the hospital,
and I thought, "It is too late for that, I am already mended".
I was in quite a bit of pain, and not moving very easily the
first couple of years, but I learned to re-educate my wounded
muscles to move.
The whole story
was like a beautiful jewel with many interesting and lovely
facets. I have come to regard the crash as a valuable gift,
my secret joyous memory that still teaches me special lessons.
My doctors have
helped me to arrange a "case" for the insurance company, and
wish me to get money enough so that I don't have to work so
much. But I love my work and earn good money. I don't miss
anything. "This is our society," they say. "You have the right
to get this support from your insurance company. This is the
way to handle this." I have followed their will, and am now
involved in a phase were the insurance company has started
to reject us and other persons/doctors that are in this kind
of situation. But I feel caught between the two... please
help.
Dear one,
We suggest that
you take the direction that exercises the truth of your heart
and that aligns with what you, as an individual, value. Listen
to the wisdom of your feelings, not your intellect. Your heart
will tell you the truth. You knew the answer in many ways,
before you asked it. It is already in the words of your question.
So just practice taking a stand.
All of this is
taking place as a part of an important life lesson of standing
in ownership of self, rather than trying to please everyone
else. What will happen is that you will split yourself if
you continue to do this. To thine own self be true and night
shall follow the day...
That is our advice,
which you already know.
A great deal of
the identity has unconsicously been caught up in the need
to feel "special in conflict." As a part of a pattern
you learned in your early life - by not making a definite
choice, you can remain in the catharsis of the drama and somehow
feel special in the attention. This is the distortion of the
child who did not feel seen unless there was a problem or
trauma. Please consider doing inner work to help your wounded
inner child catch up to your true value.
We advise that
you learn to keep it simple.
My question
pertains to depression. My friend experienced post-partum
depression two years ago following the birth of her second
child. Since then she has had periods when she is suicidal
and has been diagnosed as many things - from being bi-polar
to suffering from a hormonal imbalance. To what degree is
depression a physical condition requiring prescription drugs
as opposed to exercising Will and choice to heal the root
cause. I don't see drugs as healing the root cause.
Though sometimes
necessary in various situations to help with immediate symptoms,
drugs do not actually heal depression. Depression is there
because of a longstanding suppression of feelings. It cannot
be figured out and gotten out of with the mind. The thought
cycles are how you keep yourself in the same story, which
is what perpetuates the depression.
You need to start
working with a professional who knows how to get you in touch
with your negative, wounded feelings. The child decided a
long time ago that these were wrong and bad. You need to learn
to breathe into the lower body, through opening the solar
plexus. Expand this and begin to undo the blockages.
You can lie on
your back on a comfortable, padded surface. You can lift and
drop your pelvis, releasing a flow of sound with an open jaw.
This will begin to unlock the places in the body where the
energy is acutely trapped. It will begin to move up for the
expression of feelings that will allow the release.
And this is what
will relieve your depression. It is often helpful to get professionals
who know how to hold the space for you at first, because the
wounded child does not feel safe with these feelings.
All "bi-polar"
means is that a person has an extreme resistance of positive
and negative feelings that have been judged. This creates
a chemical imbalance, yes. But it is mostly a contraction
in the body that keeps stress in the body, though numbed out.
You need to begin to connect and feel your feelings - even
the negative, charged feelings. Feelings are not painful.
Pain comes from the resistance to feelings. So heal your pain
by releasing all your feelings.
Ron wrote a
blog entitled "Head Symtpoms" on June 9, 2006. He mentioned
that many people were experiencing energies building up in
their heads at this time and that the Photon Belt is downloading
so much energy that it is creating an overload and build-up
for many. He mentioned what to do for the symptoms.
However, after
all these months, my inner (left) ear is still effected, and
I'm wondering what to do. The hearing goes in and out, I can
hear with the left ear and then I can't hear with the left
ear. I've started to notice that when I'm "passive"or calm,
then I can hear fine from both ears. When I engage with life,
with people, it seems that the hearing in the left ear becomes
muffled.
Interestingly,
it seems that my sense awareness is more heightened at this
time and that I'm ready to "do and act" when I'm around others.
This is all coming to me as I am writing to you now. Perhaps
life is pointing me in the direction of "being still" when
I'm around people, as opposed to being ready to "do or act"
when I'm with them.
Dear one,
Part of the issue
is that your particular construction of defense has caused
lots of energetic armoring in te head, chest and back. When
you ae passive, you allow yourself to relax the energy around
these blockages. When you engage, there is tension.
How much time
do you spend thinking about things, rather than feeling your
way through life? Thinking is generally all done to help you
control something, which usually boils down to trying to avoid
your feelings. So we suggest that you trust the stillness
to be with your own inner life and feelings.
For you, often
when you have to make decisions that effect others, it is
particularly challenging. Your child has a fear of trying
to "do the right thing."
Helping to introduce
new perspectives, as well as dealing with the wounded feelings
and fears is what we feel will help the most.
We also want to
mention, however, that in your timeline, there was a time
when you were young (maybe 3 o4) where someone did something
that struck you in the head. It was not a strike that was
terribly hard or hurtful. It was the specifics of how it hit
that caused a compression in the left side of the head. It
is a little above the left ear and the right eye. The nasal
passage on the right side was affected as well.
Get some vapor
medications that have a sharp odor, which might help to unblock
the compression chambers.
You need to realize
that as you get older, trauma deepens in the body, in an attempt
to protect more and more fully. But we feel this may begin
to help.
Any kind of massage
you get in the head area will continue to help, when added
to these new focuses.
Please could
you ask Gabriel to explain what Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is
all about on a spiritual level.My daughter and I have both
been diagnosed with this. She was an air hostess and feels
she got it through toic poison which is used to fumigate the
aircraft and baggage.
Dear one - Chronic
Fatigue Syndrome is typically a result of many things. One
comes form situations where a person does not feel challenged
or creative. They then learn to "settle" and don't feel empowered
to change things. The emotional body then reacts and begins
to shut down.
One way or another,
it is mostly the result of blocked or split-off feelings.
That produces an accumulation of fatigue. There are three
primary symptoms of emotional resistance - pain, fatigue and
confusion.
Artificial lighting
can also exacerbate this as well. Photosynthesis of the body
can be affected with too much artificial lightingg. Another
typical cause is going along with something long after it
has run its course. This can produce a build up in the body
of resistant energy.
We suggest that
you inventory all the ways you have settled and numbed out
on life and your feelings. Look for clues, such as a reluctance
to move forward or change, keeping you from supporting and
nurturing your authentic needs. You both have a similar learned
set of patterns, based on trying to please others as well.
Look and see how
you are making your own needs important or not. What do you
love? What do you dream about? We suggest that you revitalize
yourselves and dare to act upon those things.
