My
understanding is that we create and are responsible for our own
life situations. I have been doing my inner work, aligning with
Spirit and offering my creative endeavors. However, I don't understand
how one creates from Truth and Light. I seem to keep creating
problems and more of what I do NOT desire.
I recently had a heart attack at the age of 51, continue to live
in lack and feel alone. The last straw was my fiance leaving me
for another woman with money.
I am at a loss as to how to move forward. I seem to be filled
with anger and depression. Thank-you for your help.
Dear one...The reason for your situation is that
on a subconscious level you are carrying unfinished feelings that
you are unconsciously fighting. We know this concept is frustrating
for most people on your planet. But you must all seek a process
for healing these feelings, by dealing with them directly.
For instance, one of the reasons you are experiencing
anger is that the subconscious is using the anger to distract
from the more vulnerable feelings going on underneath. Most people
on your planet have very little knowledge of how to feel safe
with their feelings or even how to identify how what they are
feeling or resisting and how that is vital to how you create.
In your case, one of the most powerful feelings
you fight from the subconscious is the feeling of "deprived,"
something that you have been fighting since childhood.
What you need to realize is that when your unconscious
desire to get rid of what you do NOT want to feel or experience
is stronger than what you are moving towards, then you will create
what you do NOT want - because this is the strongest commitment.
Deprivation is the primary feeling in your case.
It comes from not having felt that your needs were acknowledged
and met as a child - leaving you feeling deprived. In order to
heal this pattern, you need to open to have a relationship with
those negative feelings, rather than trying to get rid of them.
Otherwise it works like this - you move away from
what you do NOT want, to avoid a feeling, which is basically making
a commitment to fighting that feeling... and the universe responds
by giving you what you want to fight (which fulfills the defensive
commitment).
The only solution is to begin to get in touch with
the inner child and actually deal with the negative feelings.
The best way is to use breath and sound to bring them up and out
of the child's initial imprints, where you had felt threatened
by the feelings you associated with certain situations. As you
bring them up now, you can experience them from an adult perspective
and see that there is no feeling that will threaten you in any
way.
The situations from childhood revealed limitations.
Your feelings were merely your wounded reaction to what was going
on....and the adult needs to realize that you cannot change the
situations now by fighting the feelings. You can, however, change
the situations that you attract when you go inside and show the
child how to express and release the feelings that are stored
in the body from the old experiences - not from what is happening
now.
The inner child needs to know that the way to heal
them is for you to give her permission to bring them up, to feel
them, to express/release them with deep breaths and sound, which
will release the energy and give you a nurturing experience. This
will diminish your fear and resistance over time, as you feel
and then slow down to acknowledge that there is nothing threatening
your adult reality.
One clue that you might try is to imagine that you
are sending the energy of these feelings into the void as you
make the sound of AH....this focus and guide the energy, releasing
the charge of old fear and shame out of your body. And finally,
realize that every time you resist feeling and expressing, you
literally build more of the same fearful and shamed energy in
the tissues of your body, as well as continuing to teach the inner
child that resisting is the only choice you have.
As you learn how to apply what we have shared more
fully, you will find the situations in your life shifting more
fully as well. Combine this with all of the ways you can imagine
to nurture yourself, so that you replace the energies you are
emptying from the subconscious with positive, nurturing feeling
experiences and imprints.
I
grew up in a dysfunctional family, so my first relationships were
of abuse, sexually from my father and emotionally from my elder
sister, combined with a lack of emotional contact with my mother.
I used to feel I was completely alone in life and had no one to
trust or turn to for help or support. Therefore, I turned into
a sickly, insecure, unexpressive and depressed adult.
Six years ago I started a process in which I’ve been understanding
and healing on a very deep level with psychotherapy and other
alternative resources. I really have improved my physical and
emotional health. Eventhough now I feel a lot better, I still
have some health issues I don't seem to be able to heal. The first
is an eating dissorder (compulsive eating, especially sugars).
The second is in the sexual field (a general mucosal dryness...
and lack of appetite).
I am aware that the core of these problems is in the emotional
aspect, and completely related with my first relationships. I've
done a lot of work around this in therapy, and I just don’t know
what else to do. Please, give me a hint.
Abuse is a difficult situation, dear one. Because
it was a part of your early experience from people you loved,
the child in the subconscious equates abuse with love. Therefore,
the subconscious transcends the logical self and seeks a way to
experience what is familiar. The eating disorder, as an example,
can be a way to abuse yourself.
Scientists did an interesting experiment with rats,
who learned their way through a maze to get to the nurturing and
food. Eventually the scientists introduced a painful shock in
the middle of the maze. The rats still wanted to get to the food
and nurturing, so they learned to endure it. Day after day they
turned up the shock and the rats continued in the pattern. One
day they decided to turn off the shock. The rats reached this
point in the maze and got lost and eventually died while in search
of the pain they now associated as being necessary before they
could connect to the nurturing food.
There are many layers to wounding patterns, but
this is an important place to explore with your inner child -
to make sure you are clear with the child and work through the
percentages of attachment to the child's misunderstanding.
The sexual dysfunction is in many ways about not
feeling that you deserve to have pleasure on a subsconsious level.
This is often the case with abuse energy. There is also a great
deal of unresolved anger that must be dealt with, so that you
can be free layer by layer. As you show up fot this nurturing
of self from the inside out, you will learn to champion yourself.
You may very well need to do this work with a therapist
who understands how to process feelings very directly...
In the meantime, we suggest you use a couple of
exercises, wich create holographic movement. Your pelvis and throat
are built up quite a lot with energetic armoring. The pelvis is
where you all hold a lot of your abuse memory and energy. The
throat blockages comes from the learned pattern of having to block
the expression of your needs. As you do these exercises, you can
teach your nervous system the adult reality that your needs are
equal to every one else.
And as you also choose specific ways to nurture
yourself, you will be able to let go of sugar as an artificial
way to compensate for the remembered lack of nurturing. The eating
has also been a way to stuff feelings with the gratification and
a way that you learned you could 'control' something.
The sexual dryness comes from a fear of being hurt,
fearful that you will not be able to say no or set boundaries.
You need to practice expressing boundaries. As you do, your nervous
system will begin to recognize mutual value and that you can be
safe enough to open up to deeper connections. Your body will then
begin to welcome connection.
The first exercise is to move energy in the pelvis.
Lie on the floor on pillows or a mattress. Bend your knees and
put your feel flat on the floor. As you breathe in, raise your
pelvis off the mattress. Breathe deeply into the solar plexus...
As you then let go of the air (with the sound of AH), drop your
pelvis onto the mattress. The combination of the shake up (hitting
the soft surface) and the expulsion of air, you will begin to
release the blockages.
We also remind you that you must develop a process of dealing
directly with your feelings. As you release the energy that is
held in the pelvis, you need to nurture and release the feeling
memories that need to come up into your adult reality. It is a
beautiful opportunity for you to show up for the child, to show
her that she is safe to finally share and release any feelings
that have not felt safe to come up before.
One way that you can assist this emotional release
is with the second exercise. Simply lie on a mattress again. As
you breathe deep into the body, begin to use the legs and arms
to hit the mattress, much like a child throwing a tantrum. As
you do this, you will help to break up the energy held in the
body, again using breath and sound to release feelings.
Reassure the child that is it is okay to deal with
these feelings... Bring her to your present adult reality. And
again, if you feel you need help to work through these feelings,
get a therapist who knows how to deal with feelings and work with
the bioenergetics of wounding.
In
2006 I went to England to get my reiki mastership and had my attunements
done in a crop circle. Since then I use the crop circle energy
with my reiki. On 5/11/07, I used the cropcircle energy to assist
someone to transition. On that same day a cropcircle appeared
in my town. We have never had a crop circle appear here before.
I want to ask Gabriel what my connection to cropcircles are and
the signifance of this circle appearing on this day.
We
would say that this was a confirmation from the universe that
you are powerfully connecting to your authentic roots. You see,
crop circles are a form of communication through sacred geometrics
from various star systems. They are awakening the powerful imprints
of these geometrics to awaken to various forms of awareness of
the soul plan for your planet in this new millennium. For you,
it is a confirmation that you are on the correct path.
Every
one on the planet is from a particular one of 12 star systems.
In short, this was a confirmation from your particular star system,
so continue on this path and trust your awakenings.
I am now 67 years old and have been placing a potential partner
in the Light for a very long time. Over the years I have had readings
about this unfulfilled wish. Some say I don't have karma in the
relationship area; others say in a past life I made a vow; while
others say my vibratory rate is high and men don't see me... In
short, none of this has helped me. Gabriel, I am focused on my
spiritual growth and yet feel a desire to have a marriage relationship.
Any assistance in this quest would be appreciated.
There
may very well be relationship karma, as you all have karma from
previous lives in your present life challenges. But that does
not mean that you cannot have a relationship. It merely means
that the challenge was chosen in this lifetime and the keys to
the solution can be found in your childhood setups. Look at those
primary relationships and the patterns in those relationships.
We
think that perhaps you will find a strong imprint with your father,
that somehow you are protecting him...and the subconscious is
not allowing you to be available to other relationships. This
is because the child misunderstands that she a new relationship
will compete or betray your relatonship to your dad. This may
not make sense to your adult logic, we understand.
It
is a subconscious feeling that the child has determined must be
protected, even if it is destructive to your adult reality. We
feel there is a blockage about protection. And it can be that
much more confusing that she is working to preserve
a relationship that was not completely satisfying in the first
place...but we feel that the child is attempting to attract a
deeper relationship to the father. Look and see if there is any
truth for you.
You
all need to understand that any conflicts that you are having
stems from distortions held in the subconscious. And they are
ALL held in place from unresolved feelings and the ability to
identify what you actually need. These are some clues for you
to begin to break your patterns...and open yourself energetically
to having the intimacy that you say you want in your life. It
will stem from the intimacy that you build with yourself.
You
already told me that I had been drawn and quartered in a previous
lifetime in Spain. I had assumed that this was during the Inquisition.
However, while in Spain I found out that most people were burned
during the Inquisition. Could you please give me further clarification
about this lifetime?
While in Spain I realized how much I felt at home there.
I
also have a burning and pressue in my solar plexus, mostly on
the right side, but it also travels underneath my heart and to
the left. Is this due to my upcoming move back to the US or does
it also have something to do with this past lifetime? Thank you
very much for any guidance you can give me at this time.
The
past life in Spain was during the Inquisition...but your specific
situation involved the military. As far as the pain in your solar
plexus is concerned, there is a lot of memory connected to Spain
and the lifetimes there. Those feelings are now attempting to
rise and be resolved.
You
can use some of the prior exercises we have mentioned in the other
questions to move the energy of your feelings and resolve what
is held in the subconscious. The reason that the pieces are able
to begin coming together is that the
body contains holographic memories...particularly emotional memories.
Your
particular situation dealt with your situations and struggles
with power. The solar plexus is also the power center of the lower
self. The right side have to do with your struggle to assert your
power, taking responsibiltiy for different issues that are again
rising. Many of those situations were incomplete in that lifetime
and the stored feelings still pull you in an attempt to get you
to resolve these inner feelings. That is how powerfully you must
all deal with the wounded feelings of your histories. You hold
your entire soul memory, that wants to finally be resolved. The
energies that are now awakening are high enough to bring these
denser energies to the surface, but you all need to develop a
true nurturing process that deals with your feelings directly.
I have lived in South and Southwest Florida for 20 years, and
as of late I have been experiencing major over-heated symptoms,
whereby I feel as though I may pass out, my third-eye and parietal
sutures on the topside of my cranium experience headache, and
all my nerve-endings seem to come up to the surface. Then I cry
to release whatever is being purged from the system. I drink plenty
of water and Emergen-C throughout the day, every day (for 20 years);
always hydrating.
I
strongly feel this is a further burning off of 'old' patterns,
imprinting and programming, enhanced by the work I have been doing
with a guided CD from Patricia Cota-Robles CD, entitled Physical
Transformation.
However, I would love to once again resume outdoor activities,
such as running, biking, golfing, etc., without this sensation
occurring. Please help.
When
you do these kinds of meditations, it raises the body's temperature
as it raises the vibration and frequency. It also activates the
axiotonal system on the skin, creating symptoms such as heat and
burning.
We
suggest that you personally tend to build mental energy in the
head, from a great deal of mental focus and analyzing. When you
do this, you cause the accumulation of blocks that are already
held there from early patterning and choices...
We
suggest that you do two things - (1) stop using that tape for
a time and (2) deal with your feelings more directly - rather
than spending so much time in your mental energy. When you don't
have a process for dealing with the feelings and your stir them
up with meditations, the energy ends up building or accumulating
in the body, rather than releasing. We hope that this will help
in some way.
I
have worked with energy healing for some time now and in the process
have been around and intentionally included crystals and various
stones. Some of these stones over time become cracked and lost
their color. I have some beautiful Rose Quartz that has been outside
on a shrine in all sorts of weather for several years and it had
remained as colorful as the day it was placed there. Lately that
phenoninom (cracks and loss of color) has been accelerated. I
have received much speculation about it, but nothing that resonates.
I am very interested to hear what you have to say.
Crystals
inherently move at various rates of vibration, depending on their
color and other properties. Over time, as energy passes through
the crystal, it can become clogged. When more energy attempts
to move through, it can stress the crystal, creating cracks and
a dissipation of the color that held the neutral inherent energy
originally in the crystal.
We
suggest that you use your intention to clear them. You can also
put them in salt water to assist in the salt soaking up the denser,
accumulated energy.
You
also need to realize that crystals are rising now in their vibration,
based on the effects of the Photon Belt causing such an acceleration
of things on your planet. When these new energies rise beyond
what the crystal can handle at a particular time, it can also
create cracking. For instance, this takes place when you take
them into sacred sites sometimes, exposing them to higher energies.
This stress is usually caused by the accumulated dense energies
they have been collecting.
And
keep in mind that this is also reflected in how your bodies are
all being affected with the assimilation of the Photon Belt as
well. And the need for you to clear the dense, emotional energy
collected there. Otherwise your "cracks" and dissipation
of energy becomes reflected in fatigue, deeper resistance and
even dis-ease.
I
have a question concerning our young son Frederic who is turning
four years in October. Though we had his eyes checked last year,
in this year's check we found out that his left eye hardly sees
anything. This physical defect existed already last year but was
not realised by the examination methods applied then.
I wonder what the source of this physical problem can be. Does
it result out of his short life, or is it a “left-over” from past
lives, or does it relate to past generations of our families,
or is it part of his fate and duties? He had also been choked
very heavily in his kindergarten-group, why? Finally, why are
we only finding out now and not last year?
We are now looking for the best medical support we can get. Is
there anything besides classical medication and osteopathy we
can do to support his healing?
The
problem with your son's eye comes from a spiritual essence and
soul lesson, as he continues facing a challenge that he has carried
from past lives and karmic patterns. This mainly concerns the
left aspect of his being, the receptive and spiritual side - giving
him a challenge to receive that which is present and available.
This is a challenge from past lives. It may seem obvious to others,
but is not seen clearly by him.
He
also chose your family pattern because it has a similar challenge
and supports his need to look at this particular pattern. There
are ancient family systems that say, "if I divert myself
from the usual way of seeing things, it will be dangerous for
me." His experience in kindergarten has played a part of
this pattern.
These
imprints of stress and defense in the body are causing a strain
on that eye. There is a tension and an anticipation of "what
will happen to me if I introduce something new into the system."
The
way to help is to support him with love, guidance and encouragement
to accept and express himself as an individual, so that he can
grow to trust that safety and love are possible within his individual
experience.
