Some years ago I was in a car accident, that
gave me the remarkable experience of sitting in a pillar of light,
relaxed, waiting for the unavoidable crash without fear, just
being very awake. The difficulty for ambulances to reach the place
gave all the cells a possibility to remember their places and
slowly scramble into their proper place again, more or less. I
was still very awake when the firebrigade arrived, but they were
not allowed to start working to get me out of the car until the
ambulance arrived, so we waited.
I saw these menīs hearts, some beautiful with heroic wish
to protect and help, others stiff and cold hearts and afraid of
me and my situation. The ambulance arrived, and the firebrigademen
started their work to get me out of the car. To our astonishment
I told them I was not stuck.
In the ambulance the young man reported a lot of severe damage
to the hospital, and I thought, "It is too late for that, I am
already mended". I was in quite a bit of pain, and not moving
very easily the first couple of years, but I learned to re-educate
my wounded muscles to move.
The whole story was like a beautiful jewel with many interesting
and lovely facets. I have come to regard the crash as a valuable
gift, my secret joyous memory that still teaches me special lessons.
My doctors have helped me to arrange a "case" for the insurance
company, and wish me to get money enough so that I don't have
to work so much. But I love my work and earn good money. I don't
miss anything. "This is our society," they say. "You have the
right to get this support from your insurance company. This is
the way to handle this." I have followed their will, and am now
involved in a phase were the insurance company has started to
reject us and other persons/doctors that are in this kind of situation.
But I feel caught between the two... please help.
Dear one,
We suggest that you take the direction that exercises the truth
of your heart and that aligns with what you, as an individual,
value. Listen to the wisdom of your feelings, not your intellect.
Your heart will tell you the truth. You knew the answer in many
ways, before you asked it. It is already in the words of your
question. So just practice taking a stand.
All of this is taking place as a part of an important life lesson
of standing in ownership of self, rather than trying to please
everyone else. What will happen is that you will split yourself
if you continue to do this. To thine own self be true and night
shall follow the day...
That is our advice, which you already know.
A great deal of the identity has unconsicously been caught up
in the need to feel "special in conflict." As a part
of a pattern you learned in your early life - by not making a
definite choice, you can remain in the catharsis of the drama
and somehow feel special in the attention. This is the distortion
of the child who did not feel seen unless there was a problem
or trauma. Please consider doing inner work to help your wounded
inner child catch up to your true value.
We advise that you learn to keep it simple.
My question pertains to depression. My friend experienced
post-partum depression two years ago following the birth of her
second child. Since then she has had periods when she is suicidal
and has been diagnosed as many things - from being bi-polar to
suffering from a hormonal imbalance. To what degree is depression
a physical condition requiring prescription drugs as opposed to
exercising Will and choice to heal the root cause. I don't see
drugs as healing the root cause.
Though sometimes necessary in various situations to help with
immediate symptoms, drugs do not actually heal depression. Depression
is there because of a longstanding suppression of feelings. It
cannot be figured out and gotten out of with the mind. The thought
cycles are how you keep yourself in the same story, which is what
perpetuates the depression.
You need to start working with a professional who knows how to
get you in touch with your negative, wounded feelings. The child
decided a long time ago that these were wrong and bad. You need
to learn to breathe into the lower body, through opening the solar
plexus. Expand this and begin to undo the blockages.
You can lie on your back on a comfortable, padded surface. You
can lift and drop your pelvis, releasing a flow of sound with
an open jaw. This will begin to unlock the places in the body
where the energy is acutely trapped. It will begin to move up
for the expression of feelings that will allow the release.
And this is what will relieve your depression. It is often helpful
to get professionals who know how to hold the space for you at
first, because the wounded child does not feel safe with these
feelings.
All "bi-polar" means is that a person has an extreme
resistance of positive and negative feelings that have been judged.
This creates a chemical imbalance, yes. But it is mostly a contraction
in the body that keeps stress in the body, though numbed out.
You need to begin to connect and feel your feelings - even the
negative, charged feelings. Feelings are not painful. Pain comes
from the resistance to feelings. So heal your pain by releasing
all your feelings.
Ron wrote a blog entitled "Head Symtpoms" on June 9, 2006.
He mentioned that many people were experiencing energies building
up in their heads at this time and that the Photon Belt is downloading
so much energy that it is creating an overload and build-up for
many. He mentioned what to do for the symptoms.
However, after all these months, my inner (left) ear is still
effected, and I'm wondering what to do. The hearing goes in and
out, I can hear with the left ear and then I can't hear with the
left ear. I've started to notice that when I'm "passive"or calm,
then I can hear fine from both ears. When I engage with life,
with people, it seems that the hearing in the left ear becomes
muffled.
Interestingly, it seems that my sense awareness is more heightened
at this time and that I'm ready to "do and act" when I'm around
others. This is all coming to me as I am writing to you now. Perhaps
life is pointing me in the direction of "being still" when I'm
around people, as opposed to being ready to "do or act" when I'm
with them.
Dear one,
Part of the issue is that your particular construction of defense
has caused lots of energetic armoring in te head, chest and back.
When you ae passive, you allow yourself to relax the energy around
these blockages. When you engage, there is tension.
How much time do you spend thinking about things, rather than
feeling your way through life? Thinking is generally all done
to help you control something, which usually boils down to trying
to avoid your feelings. So we suggest that you trust the stillness
to be with your own inner life and feelings.
For you, often when you have to make decisions that effect others,
it is particularly challenging. Your child has a fear of trying
to "do the right thing."
Helping to introduce new perspectives, as well as dealing with
the wounded feelings and fears is what we feel will help the most.
We also want to mention, however, that in your timeline, there
was a time when you were young (maybe 3 o4) where someone did
something that struck you in the head. It was not a strike that
was terribly hard or hurtful. It was the specifics of how it hit
that caused a compression in the left side of the head. It is
a little above the left ear and the right eye. The nasal passage
on the right side was affected as well.
Get some vapor medications that have a sharp odor, which might
help to unblock the compression chambers.
You need to realize that as you get older, trauma deepens in
the body, in an attempt to protect more and more fully. But we
feel this may begin to help.
Any kind of massage you get in the head area will continue to
help, when added to these new focuses.
Please could you ask Gabriel to explain what Chronic Fatigue
Syndrome is all about on a spiritual level.My daughter and I have
both been diagnosed with this. She was an air hostess and feels
she got it through toic poison which is used to fumigate the aircraft
and baggage.
Dear one - Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is typically a result of
many things. One comes form situations where a person does not
feel challenged or creative. They then learn to "settle" and don't
feel empowered to change things. The emotional body then reacts
and begins to shut down.
One way or another, it is mostly the result of blocked or split-off
feelings. That produces an accumulation of fatigue. There are
three primary symptoms of emotional resistance - pain, fatigue
and confusion.
Artificial lighting can also exacerbate this as well. Photosynthesis
of the body can be affected with too much artificial lightingg.
Another typical cause is going along with something long after
it has run its course. This can produce a build up in the body
of resistant energy.
We suggest that you inventory all the ways you have settled and
numbed out on life and your feelings. Look for clues, such as
a reluctance to move forward or change, keeping you from supporting
and nurturing your authentic needs. You both have a similar learned
set of patterns, based on trying to please others as well.
Look and see how you are making your own needs important or not.
What do you love? What do you dream about? We suggest that you
revitalize yourselves and dare to act upon those things.
